Shouldn't

I shouldn’t care but I do. I shouldn’t, but I do. I do.

Can’t help but feel ugly when you look past me like a window,

Can’t help but feel tired when you drain me,

Can’t help but feel like a failure when I can’t get away from you,

Can’t help but feel cheated at the very thought of you.

I shouldn’t say I regret meeting you, but I think I do.

I shouldn’t say I hate you, but I’m beginning to think I do.

How scary is that…