I can't wait

Today I put a secret in a box. I put two actually. There they sit in the darkness, waiting to turn into something beautiful. Surprise, they were about you. I can’t wait until I’m not in love with you. I can’t wait until I no longer fear you. I can’t wait until…

And as my life floats by me, spending days and hours waiting for you, a feeling of searing regret consumes me. I wasted so much time on you. YOU.  It’s pathetic really. How much I have given up for you, how much I obsess over you, how much I idolize you.

I can’t wait for the day I no longer need you.

I am the size of an ant. I can be squashed beneath your shoe, and just like that, I’m forgotten.