Disunity

Why do I prefer disunity over connection? Why do I relish in brokenness over holism? I would much rather see us unhappy and distant than joyous and together. Does this make me a bad person? I would rather have the world shattered right now, what is wrong with me?

I’m at a place right now where I would much rather bring the world down with me in my brokenness. I’m in a place where I would like to see others suffer with me too. Maybe it’s selfish, maybe it’s lonely, maybe it’s disgusting. I just need to feel like other’s hearts are in pain too. I need to know I am not the only one broken here.

You shattered me. I feel like I am in a million pieces. How am I going to do this again? How am I going to be able to pick up after this? I just need someone to hold my hand right now.

The hardest part of ending is starting again.