I can be so cliché and it makes me what to barf all over the place. A girl being emotional, what a surprise right? But how can I help it? I simply feel what I feel.
Want to know my current feeling? If you don’t (and I wouldn’t either…I get it), stop reading now because there’s about to be a whole lot of feelings going on:
I’m super confused about what to do with my life
I’m feeling a tad (honestly, more than a tad) lonely
I don’t feel like my life amounts to much of anything
I fear the changes that are going to happen
I’m angry that nothing every seems to work out
I’m tired of putting my hope into hopeless people or causes- like a freaking idiot
I fear the future
I constantly believe I’m in an identity crisis and I’m over it
I feel vulnerable and uncomfortable
I feel like the size of a grain of sand
I’m led to believe that everyone will leave me, no matter the person
I’m fighting and losing
I feel like my heart is breaking and I don’t know why sometimes
I’m a fricking idiot, all the time
I don’t want to be here anymore
I’m hurt and sensitive. Everything is like a stab wound
I know this is all hot air, it’s shallow and makes me a shallow person
I just want to feel loved.
I just want to feel like I am doing right.
I just want to be able to rise above this and live with a peaceful and loving heart.
Alright, how do I get to that point? How do I find peace?
Friday, October 15, 2010
I'm an emotional girl- and I hate it
Posted by Sarah at 1:36 PM
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2 comments:
Just live your life.. Don't let all these insecurities and fears hinder you.. Shoot.. I feel the same way sometimes.. But all I can tell you is to live with an open mind.
Welcome changes. They don't say "change is good" just to make you feel better. It's true. It means you're growing. Blossoming. Into a wonderful young lady.
It sounds like you have yourself by the neck. Get loose. Forget all that and just wake up and say "Today WILL be a good day"
and it will be.
No what ifs included. If you keep questioning yourself, you'll become a ball of questions.
Define yourself now. And stick to it. If you tell yourself these things everyday, you start to believe them. And when you believe them, you'll become them.
Thank you for those kind words of wisdom! You're very right...I just need to stick with it. Define myself and go. Life is learning.
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