Fade

This idea of trust (faith) feels like a fathomless pit. I will never understand it, I will never have it, I will never possess it. I just fall into it and I am still twirling, whirling through the air hoping to land soon. I trust you? I say yes but in my heart I mean no.

It seems to me that we’ve all been hurt in this life. Had something burned, we opened up too much of our hearts to this concept of trust. What I truly don’t understand is how we could ever trust someone completely. That would actually mean opening up fully. When I think about it, I have never done that with anyone. I have never been myself. I have never have…

PAUSE

I simply have never felt more alone than right now. I need someone and that is all I can say. I need someone.