Love Deeply

I feel like crap today. I’m so sorry for those of you who are by chance are reading this; I’m not usually this way. I swear that I do enjoy life and I don’t usually see it this negatively. This has just been one of those days. Or maybe I should say it’s been those couple of days. I hate when I get like this. I hate when I am so worn out that I can barely get out of bed and the only time I do get up is to stuff my face with chocolate. I hate when I hate myself.

I’ve just been feeling rather unworthy lately. Unworthy to take time out for myself. Unworthy to tell someone I need to talk about myself because I don’t want to seem selfish. Unworthy to allow myself to give into those guilty pleasures I so adore. Unworthy to weed out those that honestly care for me and those that do not in my life. So very unworthy of asking for love.

Love deeply…very well put. If there is one thing I genuinely need to learn, and soon, is to love myself. And I know that sounds super conceded but I have my reasons for trying to love myself. Because I am discovering that I cannot love those around me as deeply and significantly as I want if I do not feel comfortable in my own skin. I need to shake this hate I have for myself. I need to accept what I cannot change about myself and just grow into a better person. I need to grow.