For my Dearest Friend,

For whatever reason I can’t seem to make a comment on your blog, so hopefully you can see this at some point in time.

I just want to let you that there are people in this world that want to see you fail. There are people that want to see you beat yourself up and settle for a life you see as mediocre. Well I am writing this to tell you that within you I see more beauty and inspiration than I have ever seen in another heart. Your heart takes my breath away. And no matter what the world says, you are going to move mountains. You cannot be in a stuck place because I see you in constant motion. You create beauty and love where ever you go. In every place I witness you touching hearts. It is glorious and encourages me more than you could ever imagine.

But, I know what it feels like to feel stuck. In a place where any move you do make is one that may hurt you in the end. A certain lack of clarity clouds your thoughts and makes you feel helpless. It is a place where you feel like you are letting certain pieces of yourself slip. You feel hopeless to try to salvage those pieces because there seems no point in the bigger picture of things. But those places where we feel like we letting ourselves slip are just moments in time. Don’t worry about sleeping in too late or eating too much chocolate or playing Prince of Persia all day. These moments are capturing life. They are the moments that let should allow yourself; guilt free…just enjoy them while they’re around.

And I know, I am just as bad as you (if not worse) about beating myself up for the small things. So this writing is just as much for me as it is for you. I think what we need to let go in our mindset is this Americanized thinking that we need to keep moving. In hindsight, the time that I allow myself to stop moving and give into those guilty pleasures, is the time that I was happiest. Don’t weigh yourself down with guilt over such small things. I don’t think sleeping in late will ever take away from the beautiful and unique heart I see within you.

So my sissy, it’s ok. It’s ok to not be perfect in some small area. It’s ok to do some things that are slightly negative in the eyes of society. It’s ok. Just be and don’t be sad. Because in a moment life will change and that stuck place you feel you are in will be gone. Embrace every instant you live now because it’s a part of living.

I love you and I hope this made any sort of sense. I wrote it late, which always makes for coherent and useful writing (not). And I realize you were asking deeper questions in your blog, so I hope this perspective can give you any answers or hope. Just thoughts that I wanted to express to you and learn from myself.