A fleeting hope

Squares will play tricks on you,
You'll be looking at them one moment and they have all 4 sides,
and then you'll be looking at them the next moment and all the sudden,
they are circles.

And you can't seem to find the strength to step
over that threshold.
Your knees are shaking and if you think about it too long
you realize that you have made the dumbest decision in your life.

It's easy enough to feel hopeful,
when it's a far off dream,
and all the hours and minutes spent dreaming about it,
are safe.
But when it becomes a reality,
forming into flesh before your very eyes,
all the sudden fear grips you,
and the dreams melt away into an odd uncertainty you never knew before.

And they'll say it will be worth it,
but do they know what it feels like
to be lost for a year
and never know if you'll be found?