Today

Today I've done the most liberating thing I have ever done,
I called you,
Heard your voice,
You sounded tired and frustrated,
Just like me.
But I called you anyway and told you,
That I don't think we should talk anymore.

The silence that grew from this created a chasm,
larger than the Grand Canyon.
What took centuries to create, we did it
in a matter of seconds.

Then you acted like the phone was breaking up
and disappeared.
I could have called you back,
and you could have called me back.
But I think we both made a decision
and seared it to our hearts to remember this by.

The last thing I will ever hear from you is
a plea.
And I swear to God,
that will always be the last thing.

Now

Don't count your love in numbers,
because that is only cause for hurt.

Don't hoard away your feelings,
regret eats flesh from the inside out.

Don't stifle your laughs,
let them burst forth to paint the world beautiful colors.

Don't hate yourself for mistakes,
perfection never looked good on you.

Don't hold back,
just let life go on.

A fleeting hope

Squares will play tricks on you,
You'll be looking at them one moment and they have all 4 sides,
and then you'll be looking at them the next moment and all the sudden,
they are circles.

And you can't seem to find the strength to step
over that threshold.
Your knees are shaking and if you think about it too long
you realize that you have made the dumbest decision in your life.

It's easy enough to feel hopeful,
when it's a far off dream,
and all the hours and minutes spent dreaming about it,
are safe.
But when it becomes a reality,
forming into flesh before your very eyes,
all the sudden fear grips you,
and the dreams melt away into an odd uncertainty you never knew before.

And they'll say it will be worth it,
but do they know what it feels like
to be lost for a year
and never know if you'll be found?

Hard Candy

These hard candies shouldn't be chewy but they are
I shouldn't be acting this way but I am.